He's quiet for a long time, so long that she probably thinks he's just a total asshat who just let her say all those mind-blowing things and isn't going to give anything back. But he wants to give her everything back, that's part of his problem, he wants to give her everything, he just kind of worries a little bit that what he's got isn't really enough for someone who deserves the world. He takes his glasses off and tosses them on the armrest, running a hand over his face and pretending that his stubbly cheeks aren't getting wet with rogue tears.
After taking a deep breath and a second to try to compose himself as best as he can, he manages to look over at her--even though it's through blurred vision--and clears his throat. "Yeah, totally payback," he says, a small smile playing at his lips. "But um, if I'm honest, the only thing that scares me about you is that you'll figure out you can do better. Not that I don't think I'm a badass, I mean, saved the world and shit, I think I'm doing pretty okay in that department. But y'know, sometimes it doesn't take a lot for people to figure out that I don't ever have a filter and that's hard to swallow for most." He shrugs a little because really, other than that teeny fear that Kate might walk away from this if she decides she's over it, he's... Well.
"You make me really happy. Like, stupid happy, the kind of happy that piss people off because I can't stop talking about it or you and how much I freakin' lucked out. The only thing I wanted to do was get the hell out of here until I met you and maybe that doesn't sound like it means a lot but it does, I promise it does." It does because back in the 'Dome, he'd been somebody, he'd been irreplaceable. Here, not so much. "I don't know how you did it in such a short period of time but... You changed everything."
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After taking a deep breath and a second to try to compose himself as best as he can, he manages to look over at her--even though it's through blurred vision--and clears his throat. "Yeah, totally payback," he says, a small smile playing at his lips. "But um, if I'm honest, the only thing that scares me about you is that you'll figure out you can do better. Not that I don't think I'm a badass, I mean, saved the world and shit, I think I'm doing pretty okay in that department. But y'know, sometimes it doesn't take a lot for people to figure out that I don't ever have a filter and that's hard to swallow for most." He shrugs a little because really, other than that teeny fear that Kate might walk away from this if she decides she's over it, he's... Well.
"You make me really happy. Like, stupid happy, the kind of happy that piss people off because I can't stop talking about it or you and how much I freakin' lucked out. The only thing I wanted to do was get the hell out of here until I met you and maybe that doesn't sound like it means a lot but it does, I promise it does." It does because back in the 'Dome, he'd been somebody, he'd been irreplaceable. Here, not so much. "I don't know how you did it in such a short period of time but... You changed everything."